It makes the heart grow fonder, they say. I'm beginning to find it truer now that she's somewhere I'm not. And she ain't coming back that soon. I thought staying in her house, in our room, will help salve the nagging sore of loneliness. It aggravated it! Being among everything that reminds me of her... Gosh.
No matter. She'll be back in exactly 6 days.
Earlier today my supervisor passed me my confirmation letter, shook my hand and said 'Congrats'. I paused for a moment pondering about how hard it was, how tough a personal trial I had to go through to earn that letter, only to find that earning it was just the beginning and now I have to strive hard for the company and my future.
2010 started off like a rotting corpse. I was just emerging from the perfect heartbreak, an extension of my job's probation period and the doubt of my colleagues that I could be a part of their team. But life has a way of making flowers bloom in the desert, and 4 months later I have a beautiful and committed fiancee, the respect of my colleagues (somewhat), and this confirmation letter. I am in a better position in life than I have ever been!
I still recall the days I squeezed out a meager existence working in a bookshop and studying for my diploma at the same time. Having to pay my school fees, bills, and daily living expenses, I have to account for every cent spent. Once, I tried to live on the most minimal (A loaf of flavored bread and a cup of coffee for 2 bucks a day) for a month only to become so gaunt and sluggish that I fell sick! Not sure how the PapuaNewGuineans do it but I CAN'T. LOL. I quickly reverted to my daily sustenance of 6 bucks per day including transport.
Compare that to present days when an average day costs 15 bucks and I could afford better food, clothes and entertainment with cash to spare. Now my fiancee is the only breakwater against the waves of desire for s PS3 LOL. She'd say 'Cannot CANNOT! End of the year then buy ok???' *Nods Nods* I understand la, must listen to laopo ma, my other half. LOL
Sigh missing her again. Logging off! =)
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