Getting passed over.

There are multiple ways to look at it.

1) Getting passed over means someone is better than me though I have been working super hard and putting in the extra effort, leading by example. It won't look good on my resume either.

2) Getting spared all the responsibilities and duties that come with Leadership, giving me time and space to do stuff that I love and have full off days. I can even take up an instrument!

3) It reveals areas that I need to work on before I can be considered for leadership. I need to talk about this with someone.

Thing is, I have been taking on more responsibilities than others, such as being forwarded and answering email queries by VJ, rostering people faithfully for the past 1 year+, performing backend maintenance of the showroom...

But the potential TL will take over the current TL's role. It feels like skipping a level to me. Seriously man??

People can really get around with good looks and flamboyant, talkative personalities. He's done it at his previous companies. Granted he's been doing more stuff at his own initiative but these are one-off things, not stuff requiring consistency and faithfulness.

Some things that he said he will do but did not:
1) repairing my souvenir magnet that he broke with glue.
2) calling the lightbulb repairman to fix a vey important lightbulb but he did not, even after a week.
3) reporting to time-off IC when he takes time off. (I had to help him report it on several occasions, what is he trying to do?)
4) he has to be followed up on in returning borrowed items.
5) only replying text from people he feels are important to him (superiors).
6) creating a service-call file. He's been wanting to do it since december. When?
7) And other stuff.

I might argue otherwise, but if they see him as a good fit, HaShem is good, and whatever he sends us is good. Even this, is good, though I may not see it now, only in hindsight will I appreciate its true value.

I blog little but frequency is building up.

This happens only if I'm vexed about something every other day.

I've just about given up about becoming one of the next team leaders, though I still hope - however futile.

I just don't have that X factor. I'm not a flamboyant personality, I'm not very talkative too. I'm just very anal about taking care of the back-end. Making sure everything runs smoothly... Making sure the stuff are aligned right.. The place clean and presentable... Fingerprints. Making sure peoples' fingernails are cut, etc. (Though I can only point long fingernails out to juniors.)

I've been losing a bit of enthusiasm nowadays. Bad thing. Must work on continuing to improve on my demonstration skills. Must get inspired again.

Maybe I'm just tired. Maybe I'm just discouraged.

I hope it's just me, but I feel my manager doesn't feel comfortable talking to me about stuff.

By stuff, I mean even casual talk. I must be pretty boring to talk to.

I bought a Dale Carnegie book about managing worry. Works pretty fine. He said the way to deal with the inevitable in life is to accept it, and flow with it. The rigid tree snaps when met with a hurricane, but the tree that bends with the wind survives.

Bruce Lee - When you pour water into a cup it becomes the cup. When you pour water into a teapot it becomes the teapot. Now, water can flow... or it can crash. Be water, my friend.

Adaptability to the inevitable is the way to peace.

Start of a new year!

2011 started off with a bang, but its ending could have been better. No year end bonus, and someone taking MC on the first day of 2012 meaning i have to go back to work on this most awesome of my off days. I'm not the only demoralized person, my colleagues are too. Everyone thought they'd be receiving bonuses this year but it was not to be so.

Last Christmas was awesome! I don't celebrate but i did buy a small gift for my baby, and her nephew who's about to turn 3! I haven't bought a gift for a child before so it's quite the fresh experience i expected. Got my gf the beautiful cup/tea maker she was eyeing. Her gift for me blew me away though, got my very coveted pair of Ray-Ban Aviators!! I've always wanted a pair but I couldn't afford it, so she lovingly got it for me!

I'm so lucky, really, to have her as my official fiancé. That's right$ we're engaged! And we're getting married this year! Amd we'll be honeymooning in Europe!

Something beautiful will be happening in this tough year ahead!