I blog little but frequency is building up.

This happens only if I'm vexed about something every other day.

I've just about given up about becoming one of the next team leaders, though I still hope - however futile.

I just don't have that X factor. I'm not a flamboyant personality, I'm not very talkative too. I'm just very anal about taking care of the back-end. Making sure everything runs smoothly... Making sure the stuff are aligned right.. The place clean and presentable... Fingerprints. Making sure peoples' fingernails are cut, etc. (Though I can only point long fingernails out to juniors.)

I've been losing a bit of enthusiasm nowadays. Bad thing. Must work on continuing to improve on my demonstration skills. Must get inspired again.

Maybe I'm just tired. Maybe I'm just discouraged.

I hope it's just me, but I feel my manager doesn't feel comfortable talking to me about stuff.

By stuff, I mean even casual talk. I must be pretty boring to talk to.

I bought a Dale Carnegie book about managing worry. Works pretty fine. He said the way to deal with the inevitable in life is to accept it, and flow with it. The rigid tree snaps when met with a hurricane, but the tree that bends with the wind survives.

Bruce Lee - When you pour water into a cup it becomes the cup. When you pour water into a teapot it becomes the teapot. Now, water can flow... or it can crash. Be water, my friend.

Adaptability to the inevitable is the way to peace.