Not ready.

Like Spock in the latest Star Trek movie. As soon as I felt I am not adequate to assume a leadership role, I should have stepped down.

My attitude towards my colleagues leaves much to be desired. I should watch how I frame my words when confronting someone about an issue, any issue. I should be more gentle.

Yet time and again I start off 'discussions' on a wrong footing, and it devolves into an argument.

Fact is, the team don't respect me as someone they could look up to. They just feel 'comfortable' working with me, and that I am really capable in the showroom. As far as getting people to look up to me, I'm not there yet.

I'm not ready.

Would I rather let some junior take on a leadership role instead of I?

Maybe. But it would be done so grudgingly since none of my juniors in the shop take more ownership of this place than me.

I got to buy another copy of 'How to win friends and influence people' by Dale Carnegie. I threw my old copy away along with the roach-infested box the other time.

I never finished the book.

So if I wanna stay in the game, I gotta brush up my act and be nicer, even when telling people off.

Tough.